Edited by Annelie Ädel and Jan-Ola Östman
[Pragmatics & Beyond New Series 336] 2023
► pp. 88–116
This chapter explores my experience as a participant in the Covid-19 Oxford vaccine trial and particularly the contrapuntal relationship between the naïve event diary I kept and my increasingly careful reading of the Participant Information Sheet (PIS). Adopting an autoethnographic approach, I describe the gradual process by which I came to realize how naively I had understood my role and how I then applied a pragmatic framework in re-evaluating the PIS as an exercise in exoneration and the transfer of responsibility from the investigator to the participant. While the PIS focuses on enumerating risks without considering the false negative possibility that the trial might be successful and yet still fail to identify a serious risk, my event diary shows how a volunteer’s sense of participant integrity is undermined when this risk that dare not speak its name actually occurs.